Dreams and Visions

Memories of my delusions
Eating away at simple dreams
It was easier without you here
Reminding me of what this means
Thoughts like shadows plague my steps
Watching you sleep passes time
Praying more with every breath
For hope and truth in your eyes
A word on the tip of our tongues
Spoken and yet ever questioned
I'm not too sure what this means
Why is it so hard to believe?
Chaos turns to standstill
The truth will come to light
The price for love may yet climb
Can you survive? Can I?
I know the risk
I know the stakes
Is this love
Or my mistake?
I may not know but I believe
The devil may be watching me
I'll fight for what I cannot see
And cling to all that you dream

Kiss Eyes Closed

Rays shooting through the bars
Still my breath quickens inexplicably
Hands shaking in anticipation
Fear trickling across my bones
Something comes unknown but sure
Kiss the edge and hold on tight
Fighting to keep the deadly gift
This moment of pretty magic
Hold me, hold this through the light
Dragons fighting in realms unseen
Whispered promises are all I keep
This is the poison I drink so deep
Fire and chill both consume
The air grows close with the coming dawn
Our screams will echo in the final day
Who's eyes will I face?
I hate my own rage
Flashes and fear are on repeat
Demons approach in night and day
This is my own defeat
and all I love is washed away

how long has it been? much too i'm sure but here's a taste of things recent...

Winder

Thoughts of the here and now
Broken dreams are my consumption
I'm sick of my own cynicism
Ready and waiting for my redemption
No lies so no regrets
Only wishes falling on careless ears
Never changing, ever dead
Remind me of my kindling fears
A call to fight requires a will
My desire is stolen from me
Mixed messages are all I get
Leading to a twisted ending
It's in your hands
What we are and will become
I see neither fight nor flame
Maybe it takes an edge to jump
One dark night, my thunderstorm
This is what I was fighting for
But I am weak, it's in your hands
I feel a whispered "nevermore"

Awakening

My atonement shines in the night
A whisper of the tangled consummation
I'm waiting for your answer without a question
Hoping for more than this rejection
Twisted messages are typical from you
Still I dream of truth without confusion
Your hands in mine breed strength and warmth
Is this real or my illusion?
I see so clearly what hides from most
Yet my own life remains a mystery
Is this just a thunderstorm
Or is it me you truly see?

...Sleeping dragon wake for me
I have my own inner beast
She stirs at the sound of your name
Your voice is her coaxing purr...

Is it selfish to think of you?
Sometimes in my dreams I do
Clearly there is more to this than what we speak
I cannot hide that I am weak
Losing faith losing rhythm
I can't tell who's head I'm lost in
I'll wait and wish 'till you make your choice
These words are my only voice

Dragon Soul

Secrets kept by darkened walls
Silence whispering my sweet redemption
Memories like limbs intertwined
Your sharpened edge my last ascension
The taste of you is on my tongue
Our close-knit flesh clouds my mind
Love plays at our fingertips
Unconscious of the passing time
Reach out and seize what you wish to hold
Grasp my hand and pull me close
More than mere fading memories
Your touch is what I wish for most
Who can say what fate will fall?
Is this dragon made of stone?
Since I have known another's warmth
I've learned I cannot sleep alone

Twisting patterns of malcontent
spell a lifetime poorly spent
Scars that whisper forgotten words
Words that linked release the cure
The trust that in darkness shone
can unbind this heart of stone
Mistakes I've made and lies I'm told
Distortion is what shapes my soul
Pictured: A cavern full of bones
Like demons does the darkness moan
But this, a fluttering change in me
Beneath my breast a tiny beat
Among the howls an undertone
"E'en in this you're not alone"

"Emo"tionally Unexplained (//_-)

  I seem to be drained and overflowing at the same time. I've been working like a good little beaver, despite management's attemps to confuse me. I don't know how I'm going to keep life in perspective in this final year, but I look forward to what comes. I've grown so much in the last few weeks! My personality is finally taking shape. It seems I'm a bit of a flirt XDD I enjoy being with people so much and making new friends every day. My heart is, I think, prepared to love again. It's hard to ignore the tugging toward certain people in my new life. Even now my skin tingles with anticipation of a new day of work and the various relationships forming there. I feel beautiful at random moments for no particular reason. How childish this all sounds! It's taken me a long while to finally find myself and blossom into...whatever I may be. I still have a long way to go but I know I will not fall. Whatever life brings I have the best friends in the world. I don't think I'll ever really fit in this world, but at last I seem to fit inside my own skin.

...come what may...